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New here. BPD, depression, and obsessive "love"

feeds@yuku.com (redmingungit) — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 09:47:25 GMT

Hi! I'm new here. I've been diagnosed with BPD and depression. My biggest problem is my emotional attachment and obsession with an idealized caregiver. For several months, I've been emotionally attached to my pastor (who's married and fifteen years older than me). He was meeting me every other week for awhile to counsel me, and I talk with him and email him a lot. I've become so obsessed with him. I feel like I need him to care about me and help me. I've given him lots...

Lexapro?

feeds@yuku.com (mattra) — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 21:12:02 GMT

Pretty sure I have borderline.

In addition to my really unstable relationship my brain feels like it unravels daily and I have no idea who I am.
I get these weird dissociations where I feel like I am a total stranger in my own life and skin.

I need pathalogical amounts of attention from my girlfriend, it's constant.
If forgets to call me back once, I flip out and think she's cheating on me.
I get jealous of any friends of hers.

I'm not...

Really confused

feeds@yuku.com (whitsend) — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 05:02:07 GMT

I just went thru a divorce. Ex hasnt been officially been given diagnosis bpd. I have a friend who is doing her internship to be a therapist that said he meets all the criteria for bpd.

quick story of past several years. ex use to be all about family and then met another woman and had an affair. It seems he went from idealizing me to devaluing me. Left home, lived at night with this woman, but hid it from everyone. He would blame me as the problem and really accusing me of...

love him, but he drives me to the ground

feeds@yuku.com (linda) — Fri, 23 Oct 2009 23:29:39 GMT

hello everybody.....

i am a 35 year old woman, that is in love with a man that still hasnt got the diagnosis... he told me he was bipolar, but the way he acts leads me to think that hes not bipolar at all.... maybe hes got
bpd ...
he is very manipulative, angry, stressed,
, he blames everyone else for making his life horrible, and ofc since i live with him, its me that gets the brunt of it... he has it in for my son, altho he never ever says anything to him, he just...

Crazy Lady

feeds@yuku.com (Laurac) — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 04:07:24 GMT

Is it normal to feel silly for feeling crazy?

I go through spells of feeling really rubbish and then when i come out of it i feel stupid for feeling like that in the first place?????

Which of us has BPD? Or is it neither? Or BOTH?

feeds@yuku.com (Thinker) — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 15:37:10 GMT

Hello all, new poster,

My marriage is on the rocks, I am seeing a therapist for other issues, but she suggested that my wife may have BPD....but I have read "I hate you don't leave me" and "walking on eggshells" (first two that came up on amazon) and now I am not so sure...I thought if I described what is going on you all might have a view...

ME
I can be very charming when I want to be. I fly off the handle sometimes (rarely) but when I do it...

How do you "fix" being a horrible person?

feeds@yuku.com (jennalea04) — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 08:35:51 GMT

I am terrible, I am manipulative (mostly when drunk) and I treat my wonderful boyfriend and various family members terribly. I have done horrible, terrible things that people will never forgive me for And the worst part is, that doesn't stop me from doing it again. My entire mothers side of my family will probably never speak to me again. If i get married. they won't be there. If i have children, they won't be there. And now I'm doing the same thing to some of my friends....

New here

feeds@yuku.com (jjhappyg) — Sun, 11 Oct 2009 15:19:46 GMT

So I'm here posting for the first time.... I'm finally willing to admit that I have a freaking PROBLEM and I want to change!!! I'm tired of allowing family members to treat me like crap and tell me that I am a freaking "petty person" for speaking up about things that bother me. I'm tired of it and I can't take it anymore! I'm tired of being invalidated - in SO many ways... that I am allowed to have feelings, that I am allowed to have boundaries, that I am...

Memory's

feeds@yuku.com (Randy) — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 06:06:57 GMT

I can't remember my childhood before the age of 10. My therapist thinks something dramatic happened to cause the memory loss. Has anyone else experienced this. Any suggestions on remembering your early childhood. How far back should you remember, my therapist says 2 to 3 years old. Thanks for any help, Randy

Haven't posted in a while... Question...

feeds@yuku.com (EsMc) — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 12:05:34 GMT

Does anyone know if it is common for someone to forget important things or things they've done? My friend has been forgetting whole conversations and actions in recent weeks, I'm wondering if it's an aspect of his BPD, something else, or if he's just going through a depressive state. If anyone has any insight it would be appreciated.

I'm new here

feeds@yuku.com (Randy) — Wed, 30 Sep 2009 12:41:54 GMT

Hello just wanted to get started with a brief history. I'm a 49 year old male diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and Bipolar II around 9 months ago. I am currently seeing a pdoc and a therapist. My pdoc has me on Paxil, Lithium, Risperadal & Lamictal. When I started I was self injuring a lot, but for the last 2 months have been doing okay with it. I still have problems with impulsive anger and paranoia. Working on getting them under control, so far no luck. So thats my...

was it so wrong to deserve this?

feeds@yuku.com (oxfordsa) — Sun, 27 Sep 2009 15:46:51 GMT

ok heres the deal my husband is regestered on a porn site from way back wen i was going through a really bad stage and we thought it was a good idea he has no pics on his profile just one of his face. my 'friends' friend who is a guy and an **+**%% was looking at my husbands profile when it did have pics on it and so we took all the pics off. two weeks ago when i was at my ' friends' house i asked if i could go on her computer and she said yes. i went on and looked at my...

BPD gone a bit overboard!

feeds@yuku.com (Centinnal) — Fri, 25 Sep 2009 16:47:54 GMT

Okay so I got a little drunk a took a few to many pills (anti-depressants and ibuprofen) by no means a suicide attempt just want to make sure if there's any thing I should do? I've also been cutting although they're pretty pathetic!

Oh and hello everyone! nice to join the rest of the loons! =D

BPD or just unhappy marriage?

feeds@yuku.com (pennylanebt) — Thu, 24 Sep 2009 12:47:00 GMT

Is there a way to tell if I'm unhappy in my marriage or if my marriage is unhappy because I have BPD? I was married for almost 19 years the first time, and never was as miserable as I am now. I was undiagnosed, but never had BPD symptoms appear like they have in the relationship I'm in now. I've been married to my second husband now for 3 months, we've been together over 2 years, and I can't tell if I'm really unhappy or if BPD is just rearing its head like it never...

New to forum

feeds@yuku.com (moped245) — Wed, 23 Sep 2009 16:25:03 GMT

Hi everyone, suffering from BPD for over 12 years and other forms of ailments (from OCD to social anxiety to obsessing over women to obsession of my past). Looking to come here for help and to talk to others and hopefully help them as well.

why does a happy spell never last

feeds@yuku.com (oxfordsa) — Fri, 18 Sep 2009 11:46:49 GMT

why can you start a night have a few drinks everything is fine you are laughing sarcastic and happy then one lil comment or reactiionn make you so angry upset fustrated full of anxiety and you dont know what to do grrrr i need to feel better i dont want to feel like this i hate it i want to feel good ok happy again and o dont understand why i go through those eppisodes to the point i am shaking and feel ( i could just kill someone not litterally) but if some one says one more wrongi would...

PPD

feeds@yuku.com (lemon182) — Fri, 18 Sep 2009 04:52:08 GMT

Ive been diagnosed with depression and Paranoid Personality Disorder and I really don't know what to do now.
I'm young with my whole life ahead of me and because of this illness I've managed to #%%% up so many peoples lives around me.
My boyfriend has just finished with me because he literally can't take all my constant suspicions and assumptions and it's not fair. He knows I have this problem and I thought that he would of been there to support me.

I...

does anyone else feel like they hve so much love to give? please read ad help me

feeds@yuku.com (oxfordsa) — Wed, 16 Sep 2009 15:30:54 GMT

i feel like ive got so much love to give but dont know where to put it. i want to show so many people that i do actualy care about their feelings and about them in general but i do but when i try and show them it goes wrong by sex and then they dont want to know when all i wanted was a friend and to show them that i cared i dont know why sex plays such an important thing if i know that they want it and think it will help them i do it but in result they get uncom fortable and leave me...

Family

feeds@yuku.com (tigger) — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 13:25:00 GMT

i've never felt like a member of my family.
my mother wanted the perfect 2 children, one girl one boy... i was 3rd to come along... tough luck huh!
this year i went back booked my flight to stay there for a week, i turned up on the saturday my parents were 30 mins late picking me up. they had to go see my sisters new flat.
i spent a day with my friend and had a great time, went back home my mother yelled at me for not helping enough, not being tidy enough... same old!...

new to forums

feeds@yuku.com (zitro) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 08:11:12 GMT

hey everyone. im' zitro. i'm new to the forums here but i've been dealing with bpd for a while now. i'm just now starting treatment. i've been on meds for the past three days. i've moved back home with my family (i had to drop out of school). i'm waiting for a letter in the mail to tell me when my first appointment with a doctor at the va will be. i'm truly in the beginning stages of overcoming this. i'm worried and afraid right now and i'm not...